i couldn’t help to ask..para cnyo?wat is LOVE.a simple and undeniable question i may say..hmbl nila wen a guy loves he’l do anything para sa gurl?am i ryt?guys cort gurls because they have to!hnd dapat baye mangaluyag sa lalaki..if that hapens DON’T EVER TAKE ADVANTAGE the gurls filings.i post this kc gusto ko mgng aware kau sa filings ng mga babae..when u cort cguradohin mu lng na u LOVE d gurl..hwag mo syang bagohin sa mga bagay na para sau lng ay masama.. she’s been happy widout u and she could still be if na realize nya na ginagawa mu na syang misyon sa buhay mo..pag kayo manligaw cguradohin nyo lng na ready kau to handle things na hnd nyo pa nakikita sa kanya..kumbaga hnd kmu mag hmbl na:HINDI KA MAN NA AMU NA SANG UNA..bakit?kilala.anay na kmu sang una amo na nahmbl mo na?how long kmu nag kilal.anay?a year?? it’s NOT ENUF.!i tell you pare kahit ilang taon pa kyo nging mag on hnd yan sapat para masabi mu na:NAGBAGO KA NA..u have to accept the real gurl “u loved”..IF mahal mu xa talaga..if ur doubting or listening to YOUR FRIENDS advices rather than to ur gurl’s story..it’s better to stop your LOVE on that gurl. doubting means wala kang trust..how can u love opag walang trust?it’s like builng a haus widout a wall..IMPOSIBLE yan pare.!make ur stand!hwag kang parang bakla na pag galit sa gurl lahat ng tao alam!u try to shout to the world the mistakes of ur gurl.!MALI.!be a man.!u try to blame urself pag nag aaway kau and tel the world na galit ka, nasaktan ka, at SANA PINANIWALAAN mu nlng ang sinabi ng IBA.masakit yan pare para sa filings ng babae..it’s like pinapaalam muang mga hnd mu gusto o mistakes nya sa buong mundo..it’s not her fault y she’s been doing that.pare, she needs ur help!she has it’s reasons..LISTEN to what she’s been saying..UNDERSTAND her reasons..and most of all LOVE her..she needs u more than her friends..instead of believing on what other’s saying and PRAY for her..NO WORDS can be best explained except his words of wisdom..yan ung dapat nyong gawin pag aware na ang gurl na mali na ginagagawa nya yet she’s still doing it..pero pag alam ng gurl kung anung gusto nya at majority says that it’s good..DON’T CHANGE HER..just bcoz ayaw mu dat does’n mean na she HAVE TO..she must enjoy what she have..support her..if natumba xa..saluhin mu..no man is an island..and no man can stand alone..kailngan ka nya..kailangan mu rn xa..if things did’n work out sa inyo..be happy..DON’T BLAME HER KC my mga attitudes xa na hnd mu gusto.gn plangga mu xa meaning u accepted what she have, has and had done..love her widout doubt..lastly, B4 KAU MANLIGAW..PRAY..u myt be heding in a wrong direction..u can either be a blesing or a reason of a gurl’s downfall.think about it.(^_^)

to what i see, it’s not easy to be free.from what i can tell, some1s gonna ring the bell. the hearts i try to give trying to make some1 believe. i cry not because I’m in pain, it is because I’m in struggle to stay plain. i have this tears drop because i have this fears. the wishes that was left behind trying t hide so that no one could find.slowly i close my eyes trying to avoid any lies. i cover myself from trees to trees because i was afraid I’ll be torn by the breeze. i was too numb to feel the bleeding in my heart that need air. i struggle my way outside from this stage trying to skip from this page. i knelt feeling cold i can tell. i shiver because I’m not a believer of this so-called LOVE that is usually ended by a FRAUD.

Life by some is defined as a challenge looking more on it’s positive siDe..but for me??i find LIFE..DISappointing..how much do  have to go before i stumble and fall??isn’t this pain ain’t enough??is there still more??!wat else??i exist in a world where no could tell WHO I REALLY AM..!what life i should take..TO WHOM I CAN COUNT ON..isn’t this pain enough??i am bounded by my own personality…i am then in ver ge of breaking down..QUITTING..to the onLY thing i am always holding oN..ibut i can’t..CAUSE HE KNOWS that i need him..need him to talk to..to share my pains this world is giving me..all of the things i’ve been working hard on was all put to waste..worthless..it has always been..and as of tonight, i pray to have a stronger faith..to hold on..for i know that this world is giving me the HARDEST THINGS..things they knew i could’nt carry on..

I may seem to be a jOker in Der eYes..but this i will tell is nOt a Lie.i demand respEct for i know it’s wrOn g to faKe.cHEKING THE REALITY IN ME…I KNOW dis is hard to see.the truth that lies behind all thoSe things i couLdn’t finD..IF someOne couLd be sTrong enUf to give me this..mayBe sOmedAy i won’t get miSsED.IM NOT uR SERVANT 4 U TO BE SERVED.I’m just like u girL..doNt aCt so touGH bcOz in reaLity your cRAcK.dOn’T feel great for i know it’s aN act.DON’T treat me like YOU TEAR your oDer gurLs..bEcause i’m way to different from them that’s y i demaNd R-E-S-P-E-C-T..!!

You sHouLd know that a gurL needS the pResence of his BOi..

You sHouLd know that a gurL neeDs thE Love rather thAn Money..

You sHouLd know that a gurL Loves u rather than waiting her say so

You sHouLd know that a gurL appreciates ur giFts rather than w8ting her say thank u..

You sHouLd know that a gurL can Love so deepLy and be Hurt so badLy..

You sHouLd know that bcOz im youR gurL..

i can’t hOld on anymore..things or maybe this situation is getting more complicated..DAW gusto ko na gid magBuya..few days from now, i’m gonna decide..kung to do it or not..i am Losing everything i have..my Love..my Hope..myseLf??hehe..hindi man..boang na gid ko na krn..but seriously, this thing is getting heavier..kapoy na dal.on..i’m losing hope..and also trust..if i have to wait..cguro i need a Lot of patience..pasenxa..mu gid na kailangan ko..in God’s PERFECT time..

is wat i need..i need to know why? i need to know how..fOr i just gotta know..i have to..why i’m having this sLeepless nights yet i’m telling them i had a good sLeep..why i’m cRying everytime i think of it and yet i’m telling them i don’t..y i get so weak wen it comes to this..yet i toLd myseLf that i’m strong..y i am in pain ryt now But i aLways pretend that i’m not..i have to know why i am feeLing this way..this pain is kiLLing me and really buggin’ me out..i need to know why.. to soLve this puzzLe in me..i know i can buT i’m just too weak to try..i gave it oL yet i can’t get the fact that it’s gone..i am now..what people is telling me.hopeLess?.i thought i’m not..Lately i’ve been anaLyzing things..i try to hIde my emotions..but suCh things just simpLy remind me on something..or mayBe on someone..can somebody tell me if it’s over now??i need someone brave enough to tell me..to be frank in me that things ain’t going nice..i have to face what this worLd is giving me..gOod or bAd..still, i have too..if it compLetes other peopLe lives..then y it ain’t compLete me??..i need tym to know..if it takes me a month..a year or whatsoever..i’LL wait..if this will make me atLeast be compLete or hapPy..i’LL wait..if i’LL know the answer..I’LL WAIT..i am convicted from this..it seems that i am far from what i wanted to be..is it time to Let go??to be totally aLone in this worLd?..if this is what people telling me that i shouLd feel..then this things doesn’t fit me at aLL..i’ve tried..but i know to myseLf that i didn’t do that hard..because i’m still having this pain in me..i spent asking myseLf a Lot of questions..Questions that Can heLp me to be atLeast happY..what i’m feeLing ryt now is totaLLy mixed up..

..i couLd ever imagine to have is losing someone or maybe something i treasure the Most..these were the things i fear the most..the things i can’t barely imagine to experience..but i guess..I have to face my fears..i’ve experience a Lot of pains in my Life, hardships, and  challenges..and i can tell..it wasn’t easy for me to surpass those things..U can always smile..laugh your heart out.. and pretend that everything i s FINE..i admit..i’m in deep pain right now..i just can’t hide it..the greatest threat i have were the things i love the most..u see??it’s not that easy..i’m confuse..in pain..and aLone..and i don’t know who  to lean on in times like this..i know God is UP there…but who can be here to help me??who can be so considerate enough to listen to me??..i need to know what the solution is..how can i overcome such fears??..i need to know..i just have to..im so tired of crying over and over again..i want to be happy but i’m just to scared to take the risks..in this worLd, everything is a risk..and maybe i’m just too weak to give a try..i’m too late fOr everything..i’ve missed a lot of opportunities..opportunities which supposedly will moLd me into a new me..i can’t be confident to try if i have this thing that’s depriving me to go on..i somehow feel inferior to myseLf..because i know i can do it..but i’m just too scared to try..i’ve change in a way that i didn’t even know who i am right now..what i know is that i’m a girL..wounded..and aLone..that’s it..!(except sa ky God and fam. ko)almost all of the special persons i loved, cared and depend on..LEFT me wounded..that’s why i’m living my life aLone..it’s better to be aLone than to be with som1 that’s not paying attention to you..it’s better to to be in pain..for atLeast i know i am..than to pretend i’m not yet this feeling is killing me..

i never expected this will happen again.. i told my self to control but i couldn’t.. i toLd myself to stop. but i can’t.. this feeling is really buggin’ me out.. i, as a lady promise to give my love on the person who is worthy of it.. one mistake is enough.. YET, i found myself been fooled again.. and how could it get worse? i found myself alone.. even if he was still there.or he still existed in my life.. if i could just let myself be stupid, i would probably rewind time and let him know how angry i am for what he has done really hurt me.. but i just couldn’t do it.. as you can read at my profile.. I DON’T PUT GRUDGE to the people who hurt or is trying to hurt me.. they say," pangakig ka bala! amu na na gin himo sa imo!" duh!…"abi nyo nami mangakig?, madamo pa na wrinkles ko karon.." he knows that what he has done WAS REALLY WRONG.. d b? And i know God will do something about it..(i’m sure!) i don’t how or what.. but i know God has a plan for me.. like i said, SOMEDAY…… they were the persons i never expected to hurt me.. despite of what i’ve done.?how can they bareLy imagine to do suCh things to a lady who can only do is to love them? i can’t promise not to love again.. of course that would be a lie.. BUT what i’m promising is.. to wait..If it’s time then so be it….never rush on things… i have my family, my CREW and my friends who i can lean on… and i think that would be enough for me to stand again…!