..i couLd ever imagine to have is losing someone or maybe something i treasure the Most..these were the things i fear the most..the things i can’t barely imagine to experience..but i guess..I have to face my fears..i’ve experience a Lot of pains in my Life, hardships, and  challenges..and i can tell..it wasn’t easy for me to surpass those things..U can always smile..laugh your heart out.. and pretend that everything i s FINE..i admit..i’m in deep pain right now..i just can’t hide it..the greatest threat i have were the things i love the most..u see??it’s not that easy..i’m confuse..in pain..and aLone..and i don’t know who  to lean on in times like this..i know God is UP there…but who can be here to help me??who can be so considerate enough to listen to me??..i need to know what the solution is..how can i overcome such fears??..i need to know..i just have to..im so tired of crying over and over again..i want to be happy but i’m just to scared to take the risks..in this worLd, everything is a risk..and maybe i’m just too weak to give a try..i’m too late fOr everything..i’ve missed a lot of opportunities..opportunities which supposedly will moLd me into a new me..i can’t be confident to try if i have this thing that’s depriving me to go on..i somehow feel inferior to myseLf..because i know i can do it..but i’m just too scared to try..i’ve change in a way that i didn’t even know who i am right now..what i know is that i’m a girL..wounded..and aLone..that’s it..!(except sa ky God and fam. ko)almost all of the special persons i loved, cared and depend on..LEFT me wounded..that’s why i’m living my life aLone..it’s better to be aLone than to be with som1 that’s not paying attention to you..it’s better to to be in pain..for atLeast i know i am..than to pretend i’m not yet this feeling is killing me..